(a day late due to a sassy computer)
The Aunts and Uncles-Part 1.
My brothers and sister-in-law. It broke my heart to see their pain. I know they hurt for our loss as well the loss of their nephew. My beautiful niece Emma was born when I was about 17 weeks pregnant with Holden. Coincidentally, she was born on Ricky's birthday. I remember holding her for the first time and imagining the fun Holden and her would have together. Seeing her beautiful face made me excited for our next chapter. She did not come into this world easily and I just sat there staring at this miracle, realizing how fragile life truly is and praying that my baby would be okay. I would never have imagined that it would be just her now. I saw the love in Collin and Jenna's eyes for their baby and remember that feeling when I first held all of my babies. That is true love right there. I saw that look again about five months later as they held my precious son in their arms. Having experienced the joy of parenthood, I know they felt pain at a level similar to ours. Jenna was unsure if she should bring Emma to the hospital but i am so glad that she did. That precious little girl reminded me that there are still happy endings and that life is such a blessing. Her sweet ,chubby smile brought a little bit of happiness into that room. When Collin and Jenna entered the room, their pain was evident. As they held Holden, I could see a small smile peek through the tears when they looked at him. How very proud they looked. My heart was overflowing! I know how much my earthly babes love this trio and I know Holden is looking down at them with so much love in his heart.
My baby brother Logan was a few hours away for work. At first, he didn't think he would be able to come to the hospital but he ended up coming after all. I know he felt a special bond to Holden as they both would be the youngest of their families. I see Logan with Lydon and I know Holden would have adored him just the same. My big, burly brother entered the room and collapsed into tears. His heart was breakimg and no amount of comfort would help. It was surreal to see him holding Holden as I thought back to the first time he met Lydon and how proud he was to have a nephew. It was such a beautiful moment among so much pain. Unfortunately, no pictures were taken while he was holding him as we were so focused on Logan's grief. However, that moment will forever be burned into my memory. My baby brother holding my baby boy who never took a breath. What a precious gift to have so much love surround my beautiful son.
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