The Warriors

There is a group of women I know for which I am now a part of.  I have written about these women before but I will never be able to capture their bravery among my writing.  Their courage is a beautiful yet heart wrenching thing to witness.  They have given me strength without being present.  They have wiped my tears from afar and warmed my heart with a single hug.  These women are warriors, through and through.  These women are mothers to angels.   I have heard stories that could make the coldest heart melt.  I have seen the pain upon their face as they speak their angels names in private.  I have seen the pride they possess among that pain and the daily battle to keep their angels' memory alive.   These women are warriors who fight to help others placed upon this path.  They face a mother's greatest fear with the amazing power of infinite love. 

Us angel Mommas fear that our little ones will be forgotten, that their names will fade with time.  We worry that others will forget that these lives, no matter how brief, were and still are so very powerful.  Our angels live with each breath we take, with each beat of our hearts.  We live with the gaping hole in our heart that is filled with sadness, love, pride and fear.  It is a feeling that words cannot describe.  With each passing day, we awaken to the heavy ache of knowing what we do not have.  We will never feel complete as a little piece of us has been taken.  There are now two versions of us, who we were before and us now.  We yearn for our life before yet would not give up who we are now for it would mean not knowing the love we have for our angels. 

I have witnessed the amazing power of these women through their stories and their actions.   I have been able to move forward by using their strength to push me.  They have given me a gift that I will never be able to return.   I have seen them face their fears and bring rainbows into this world.  There are some who are currently pregnant with their rainbows and facing each day with uncertainty.  There are some who are selflessly sharing their stories to raise awareness and help others face their fears.  I am honored to be among these women and I feel that our paths were destined to cross.  Although deep sadness has brought us together, I cannot imagine my life without them.  These women, these warriors,  are truly angels on earth.  The world is richer having their intense power upon it.